The 7th was JC’s condo birthday jam. At first I felt nonchalant, not wanting to mingle with anyone except the friends I came with. I tend to be VERY anti-social.
I know I *should* network, but I wanted to let things flow naturally. And I earned me a new girlfriend.
But it was in that jam when I got turned off by concept of being a single woman thrown into a massive pool of bachelors in one small room. Some might think it’s man-shopping, but it gets uncomfortable.
Especially when I was LITERALLY stuck in between a leechy white dude who kept saying he was planning to buy a condo unit in SOHO and kept saying he’s “eccentric” and a Pinoy whom I called my personal ‘Chuck Bass’ a few posts back who kept asking me “Can’t you tell something about the way I’ve been looking at you all night?”
It was like Twilight Zone. I was waiting for one of them to reach over me and punch each other in the face. It wasn’t also fun when visibly, the married birthday boy himself was flirty.
But I had a nice slow dance number with a friend of ‘Chuck Bass’ near the end. He stuck out his hand and pulled me to the dance floor, and I just majorly suck at slow dancing a la twirling motion that he had to lead the dance.
“So when was the last time a guy danced with you like this?” he whispered. Then I thought, actually back in December, during Christmas party, with my ex. And I got sad all over again. *sigh*
My friend’s boyfriend had to jump in, pick me up and carry me away from the crowd of men around me while I was trying to leave the party.
It was frivolous. I felt free. No holds barred. No rules. No restrictions. The shiny fabulous single girl in the party, amidst the flood of bachelors, that turned vicious over my attention. But did I really want this?
I don’t want to participate in this kind of game anymore. I felt awkward. I would just like to be cuddling under a blanket and watching sports with the one I love.
It’s been a month now since the breakup. I was once told; “Don’t look for Mr. Right Now. Look for Mr. Right.”
Or. Not look at all. I’d rather chill.
you live a life i see only on TV. (suddenly Beauty and the Geek came to mind.. and yeah im the Geek hahaha.. )
sometimes really good things come to us in times when we dont look.
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karen Reply:
February 26th, 2009 at 6:41 pm
yeah..but sometimes too much drama is, well, emotionally draining. Lol See ang drama ko tlga!
That’s true. Besides, I’m not desperate enough to look. If something’s supposed to be mine, it will be.
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rjene Reply:
March 5th, 2009 at 6:57 pm
i don’t know how to search and live except by day after day. drama included.
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